It feels like ages since I last posted, but I have been so very busy.
Looking for a job and trying to get ready for a new school year is very overwhelming. I've got a job, right now it is on a as needed basis, but it will help out a bit until the permanent part time position becomes available, plus I had a proposition from another friend to keep her children 3-4 days each month and allow her to get some things done for a wonderful fee. That will definitely help out a bit. And then I will still have time to school the children and work on my Pampered Chef business.
God is so awesomely amazing and He loves us so very much. He does give us the desires of our hearts. And He knows exactly what we need when we need it. I would be lost without my God. He has proven to be my EVERYTHING!!!
I have never been alone in my life. I went right from my mother's home to my step grand-parents home and then to my father's home. Shortly after that I was living with my husband and we married that following March. Now I'm faced with soon being divorced and single and alone (in a sense). I am afraid, I can't even lie or be brave. Yet I know I must step out there and face this new challenge in my life. It's scary. I never imagined nor dreamed I would be without my husband. This is not the path I cared to travel, but for whatever reason I am traveling it. I am so aware that NOTHING JUST HAPPENS and God knew this would happen. He prepared me by putting things within me to be able to deal with this, but sometimes I just want to curl up in my bed and cry my eyes out like a little baby. I've not been able to do that, as I've had to be the strong tower for my children. But I have my days of just wanting to scream and have a tantrum. It's on those days that God literally holds my hand and lets me know that "daddy" loves me.