Confessions, can be so hard/humbling

I've been reading Deut. 5 & 6,and Psalms 139 for the past week now. The children will have a "contest" to see who knows all of the 10 Commandments; they are doing really well. But this morning, as my sister and I were driving in to work, God began to weigh heavy on my heart. I had to get quiet and just mull over what He was saying. I didn't sit in the car and get in my Word as I had been, I quickly came into the office. I wasn't trying to escape (as if one could), I just wanted to be ALONE with what God had laid on me.
The Israelites had been wandering around in the wilderness. They took a 40 year journey that should have only taken 11 days. They grumbled and complained, tore each other down with their words and ridiculed Moses for their plight. I wonder, did they ever realize they were their worst enemy? Did they realize that satan was using them as a pawn and they were falling for the trap?
Well, with God's words bouncing around in my mind and upon my heart I sent the apology below to my sister:
I owe you a huge apology. I know that it is clearly written in His Word
Ex. 20:12
Deut. 5:16
Matthew 15:4, 19:19
Mark 7:10, 10:19
Luke 18:20
Ephesians 6:2
to honor (respect; not because it is earned, but because it is commanded of BY GOD. Kinda like we love Him because He first loved us) your father and your mother. I have not done accordingly and for that I owe you such a huge apology. It is not honoring anytime I have spoken a word against mom. I am clearly instructed to take all my cares to Him (who can do something about it) and leave it at the Mercy seat. I have not done this. I realize that in not obeying this command I have been the enemies pawn and the tool with which he can/will use to cut my life short. Since I desire to live a long life, I've confessed before God and now you that I was wrong. Please accept my apology. I am to use my words to build up and edify, not grumble, moan, groan,and complain. Again, if I take these things to Christ, who can move mountains, then He will do all He promised to do (and this is for any situation).


Humbled/convicted,
your sister

Man, I'm so glad God loves me enough to show me where I mess up and then He takes the time to show me how to fix it and make it right. And through it all...He still loves me. I don't know what else He will bring to my attention just from reading these chapters, but I know it will only be for my good because He wants the very best for me. He is not any different than an earthly father chastising his children, His love/forgiveness is just GREATER!!!!