It seems in the past couple of months that several women have come to me to lift them up and pray for them. And while I don't mind doing either of those things, because I feel that not only did God allow things to happen in my marriage to turn me back to Him, but also to minister to other women going through the same issues I've been throug. But what am I to do when I get discouraged and it seems that things just don't seem to be changing. What happens when I won't to throw in the towel and just give up? I know I can't give up, but I have to be honest with you and when things look dull and they seem to be going no where or they seem to be getting worse, I want to do just that, QUIT!!!! My heart is heavy right now. I am burdened. I can't be with my children and that's where my heart really is, I don't see any changes within my husband and yet I know God is up to something. Whata do you do when you really don't know what to do and all you want to do is run, scream, and hide from all that is going on? STAND! And I have to be honest again...that is really hard for me to do right now. Pray for me, so that I may lift you up and be a blessing to you once again.
Posted by Tasha at 12:59 PM
I'm sitting here at work and just contemplating all I need to do and there just seems to be no time to do all that I am needing to do or is expected of me. I feel so heavy. The load seems so hard to carry. And when I think of who I could delegate some of the responsibilities to, I realize there is no on else. My husband still out of the home and there seems to be no end in sight. The children pulling me every which way, my home is a wreck and the children can only do so much, working full time and the limits that brings along with it. It is all too much for me and I don't know what to do. I'm so busy, I'm finding it hard to have any time with the Lord, how am I to also lead my children in devotions and developing a quiet time with the Lord? It is just too much. Lord, what am I to do? Who is going to help me? How long Lord will this go on? 3 1/2 years have passed and still I am holding on by a thread. Lord help me, I'm drowning and it hurts.
Posted by Tasha at 12:58 PM