It's been a long time since I've fasted. A long time since I've felt led by the Lord. I didn't wake up with that in mind yesterday, but as I prayed for a friend yesterday, I felt the Lord tugging my heart to invite her to join me in a fast.
Hmmmmm, I didn't at first. I totally did my best to ignore the nudging and almost ended the conversation. However, God just doesn't let things go that easily.
So I invited her to join me in a fast.
We are still working out the logistics, the day(s) we will fast and because she gets sick easily, she will only fast a meal, but the Lord is clearly leading me to fast according to His timing. So many things the Lord has begun to lay on my heart to pray for during our time of fasting and praying. I need to begin a list of those things before I can no longer remember.
Over the last few days, the Lord has also begun to rekindle my heart to stand for my marriage. Yes, by all accounts, I can divorce Biblically. Yet, the Lord has constantly turned my heart away from divorce each time I have tried to make that step. There are times I don't want to desire this man. This man that has hurt me so deeply. And yet, as I reminisce about our early years, I remember a man I fell in love with. No, I didn't pray before we married. I was far from saved. I had no idea to pray for my future mate. But the day we said I do, the Lord was present and in the midst of that day and our lives. So, if I'm honest with myself and my God, I want my marriage to be restored. I want our lives to be transformed for the glory of the Lord. A testimony of God's strength and power and I want to encourage others to stand for their marriages as well.
In the meantime, if you feel led, pray for God's wisdom and direction in my life and the lives of my family. I leave you with this neat story from Moody Radio. A Marriage Carol It has blessed me, I pray it blesses you as well.