What's Really Going On?

Last week I spent not one moment in the Word and I could clearly tell. My children went to stay with their father for a week and I've felt every emotion under the sun since then. I feel that I am under attack from the enemy daily. Sadly, I haven't fought back very well. I know that if I stay in the Word, God will fight the battle for me. Why is it so hard to do that? What makes it so difficult to lean on God for His answers, protection, and strength? Oh how I wish God would just come sit and talk with me.