Today marks 1 year that my mother has been home with the Lord. This entire week has been an emotional roller coaster, as I could replay words, steps, thoughts, and moments that led up to this point in 2009.
I've wanted to give up and walk away, but God. If not for Him keeping me, I KNOW I would not have made it.
My children and I went to the DFW National Cemetery. The first time we've been back since last year for her funeral. My son stayed in the car, so it was just me and the girls. It was not easy, but I'm glad we did it. Even after my tears and such, I wondered would I return there? Would I put flowers down again? My mother is not there. She is present with the Lord.
As we were driving back home, I was trying to figure out what we would do as a celebration of her life each year. Here is what I came up with... we will release a balloon for each year that she has been with Jesus and light a candle at 5 pm, which is the time that the family gathered in preparation of removing her from life support. I don't know if I will ever go back to the cemetery, but I will celebrate what a marvelous woman she was!!!!