I KNOW what I want, but ONLY YOU KNOW what is best for me. I surrender my dreams, desires, and will to You. Whatever You would have me to do, I will be obedient to walk it out!
This is my prayer and my heart.
I know I want to finish homeschooling my children. I want to continue living in the country. I want to continue living off the land and raising animals for our food. I want my marriage and family restored. I want to be home with my children and work a job that is flexible enough to allow that. I want to live in a nice home. I have certain dreams for my children.
However, I have come to realize that what I want and what God wants may very well be two different things. I've been praying for God to deliver me from my hardships, but God just may want to deliver me IN my hardships. Do I want to go through more trials, tribulations, or suffering? NO, yet He's building my faith and character through them all.
This by no means is easy. It hurts. It's a bit scary. Yet I am weary of it all. His will, guidance, direction, and protection is all I seek at this point. So please pray with/for me as I humble myself to His will. I earnestly want Him to show me what my steps should be and when I should take them and help me to make those steps.