I began listening to The Pineapple Story. I'm on the second session. Otto Koning is teaching about surrendering to God. He refers to them as the things he had to surrender and as grades. He made a statement that made more sense to me than I had ever thought of. When you are saved, you immediately enter school. When you stop and think about it, it's true. You enter first grade all over again.
You are in first grade of learning who God is and who you are in Christ. For me, I'm back in first grade RE-LEARNING how to surrender to God. There is still that one statement that is ringing like bells in my ears. As long as you are trying to solve your problems, God won't push you out of the way. He'll step aside and wait for you to move out of the way and let Him handle it.
I haven't surrendered things to Him and I've been trying to handle my problems myself.
It's HARD to realize PEOPLE are NOT your enemy. For we are not fighting against people made of flesh and blood, but against the evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world. Against the powers of darkness who rule this world and against wicked spirits in the heavenly realms. Eph. 6:12
Surrendering is also hard. It's not a one time thing either. In just the last 24 hours, I've surrendered EVERYTHING I could think of that is causing me fear and worry, and I've done it repeatedly. As I lay to sleep for the night, my mind swarmed with all the "problems" in my world. I'd find myself getting angry and I'd have to surrender that thing again. I'd go to sleep and wake up in about 30 min. with fear and worry and I'd have to surrender that thing again as well.
So I've determined that I'm in first grade once again and I pray I'm not here long, but I'll surrender these things over and over again until I have freedom and God is the Lord of all.