Before I go further, I wanted to impress that the pushing of my buttons was not people letting me know what my children were posting on Facebook. I no longer have Facebook and so I greatly appreciate when people contact me out of concern. The pushing of my buttons is that I KNOW the enemy is doing ALL he can to ensnare my children.....
I decided not to post on Chapter 1 yesterday, but to just meditate on yesterdays message from church as well as to re-read chapter 1. I'm still re-reading. It's not a long chapter, but I'm taking it extra slow.
In the couple of pages I read the first time, tears streamed down my face. Tears of understanding. When we think of a pit, as Christians, we more than likely associate it with a pit of sin. That we are in our despair because of sin. Now for the most part, that may be true, but as I read on, it seemed to me that the 3 different ways of getting into the pit she describes are all ways I've gotten in. The sad thing is that so many of us are in this pit and we've begun to decorate it and try to make the most of it and be content.
However, I'm like Beth, I think there are just some things we aren't supposed to be content with and being in the pit is #1!!!
"A pit is an early grave that Satan digs for you in hopes he can bury you alive. Should you fall into it, make no mistake; he cannot make you stay. Ironically, neither will God make you leave. Like it or not, some things are simply up to us. (This statement will become clearer in another chapter)
Psalms 40:1-3 says I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifter me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord.
When all is said and done, this will be my victory message...
She says you know you are in a pit when.....
1. You feel stuck...Isaiah 42:22 This describes me. I have felt like surely I did something to deserve to get here so I might as well make the most of it and deal with it.
2. You can't stand up...Psalm 69:2 I feel ineffective and powerless against the attacks of the enemy.
3. You've lost vision...I can tell you this is a dark place, this pit. There is no vision here. I look around with a fleeting moment of hope and then suddenly all hope is gone. Not able to see a way out, I turn inward. She says "We can't see out, so we turn our sights in. After a while, nearsightedness breeds hopelessness. We feel too buried in our present state to feel passionate about a promised future."
THIS IS ME!!!! THIS IS ME!!!! Finally, someone understands!!!!!
There is one thing I know, I want out of this pit! I want my freedom back! I have not understood the pit, but I have prayed and told God I felt like I was in a grave, a dark place. There is darkness all around and at times there are glimmers of light, but after you've been digging in the muck for so long, you're too tired to even try and fight for the bit of light you see or you try and you enjoy it for a moment and the enemy hits you with something else and you topple back down to the bottom. After you've been struck down so many times, you get too tired to even dig and you sit there trying to make the best of it and be content. And yet I'm constantly saying, Lord this does not feel like the abundant life you promised. And by that, I don't mean EVERY moment will be sunshine, but it will far outweigh the gloom. I have fleeting moments of sunshine and the gloom is eating me alive.
I can say I fully understand what my mother went through the last year of her life for sure, but she didn't know how to describe it nor was I fully capable of understanding what she could describe.
This is no cake walk, it is definitely a war. It is a spiritual war and the enemy is out to steal, kill, and destroy. He doesn't let up either. He is relentless until we give up or we FINALLY get to that place of victory through Christ Jesus. The victory has already been won, you say. I say it has and I agree, but there is a battle in the spirit realm and in my mind. The battle is ongoing and I'm fighting for my life!!!! Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning. The only thing is.....we never know how long the night will last!!!! As for me, THIS HAS BEEN A LONG NIGHT and I'm ready to wake up!
Thanks for allowing me to be honest.
I'm almost beginning to wonder if this book and Joyce Meyers book...The Battlefield of the Mind should be read simultaneously!!!