I'm learning and re-learning day by day that this walk with Christ is a daily surrendering and trust thing. You can't simply say one day I trust God, I am a follower of Christ, I believe. This is a daily dying to self and surrendering your will for His. He is ever stretching me and growing me in areas that are just plain hard.
I can see Him at work in my life and heart, but there are seriously times I want to say ok God, enough. Times when you think surely there can't be much else that God can pull from me or pull out of me, and then....another trial, another opportunity to grow in Christ, another time of stretching in faith and trust.
Not easy, but so worth it in the end. I want to ask God to fix things and let me have a reprieve and THEN allow me to come back into the scheme of things. However, He is asking me "Will you trust Me"? To which I can either say no and forfeit oh so much OR I can say yes and He blesses my socks off with growth and fellowship with Him. When I look at it from that perspective, I say YES....un-ashamedly and WITHOUT reservation!
My God is greater! My God is stronger! He is higher than any other! He is healer! Awesome in Power.....MY GOD!!!! If my God is for me than who can ever stop me or come against me????
It's boiling down to will I believe and trust His word? Will I stand on His promises? He has said He is not a man that He should lie. Do I believe Him?
There is no one else I can trust or believe beyond a shadow of doubt. No one BUT God, even when things look ugly and I don't have the answers I'm searching for. God is All I have and All I need. He's showing me daily my need for a Savior.