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Just kicked my butt tonight!!!!!!!!!  They offered a free class and so my sister and I tried it just to see what it was like.  OH MY WORD!!!!  I'm hurting in places I forgot existed and haven't moved in YEARS!!!!  But it felt oh so good.

As I soaked in the water tonight, I said a quick prayer.  It feels sooooo good to do something for me.  That may sound selfish, but I think as mothers, we often times don't take care of ourselves as we are busy taking care of everyone and everything else around us.  We need to see to our needs too or we won't be any good for anyone else!

I've turned in more applications.  I have got to find something part time until fall classes start.  Then they highly recommend not working as the course is pretty tough.  The home health aid will only be part time and it will just be 2 hours for 3 days, which is all I really need at this point.  It will at least keep me from losing my car!

OK, I'm off to bed, I'm exhausted......

It's official

I really prayed and hoped it wouldn't be so, but it is.  The van has got to go in the shop.  Now we have another dilemma....I can make payments on it, but it will have to remain at the transmission shop until fully paid for.  We're talking $2000.00!!!!!  YIKES
The other dilemma is transportation until I get mine back.  I have none.  I also have no idea what we'll do until I can pay for it.
Ummmmmmmmmm trying to stand on the truth of God's faithfulness and provision.  I don't know how, but He will provide.

Notices

I hate disconnection notices.  With all that is in me, I hate them and yet, I find myself facing them once again!!!!  

I Know God will work it out,  but I still hate them.

As a side note, I got all signed up for Scentsy and then it seemed like the room got totally silent.  Many of my friends don't comment on my facebook statuses anymore or even reply to my emails.  Really disheartening, especially since I didn't try to sell them anything.  Just wondering AGAIN if this was the route God had in mind.  Every avenue I have tried to bring in some kind of income to support my family has seemed to go bottoms up and quickly.  Back to praying to seek Him yet again and gain understanding...I hope.  Somethings got to give!!!

In the meantime, blogging has taken a back seat.  I've been going through so many emotions that I didn't want to bring anyone else down...I want my blog to be encouraging and if I can't find encouragement in it or through it, I just don't blog.  I hope to be back soon though because I sure miss putting my thoughts down. 

Gleaning The Harvest Chipin Widgets

I want to first say this ministry is amazing.  I am very thankful that there is something out there for us single, home-schooling moms!!!!  Each month others are able to bless the families listed on Gleaning the Harvest to help meet our financial needs.
Last week a dear friend asked me how things were going and asked about the widget she had on her blog.  She noticed that each month it said the goal was met.  However, what we did not know is that each month you have to go the the Gleaning the Harvest website and get the new code for the chipin widget each month.  It does NOT automatically update.
So if you are one of those who has mine or another family's widget on your blog or website, remember each month to get the new code and put it on your blog or site.

Have a blessed day and remember even a $1 is a help to a single mama!!!!

Confused and Exhausted

I know that I know, that I know, that God provided for ALL of our needs in 2010.  I know that I know, that I know He IS my provider today.  I'm just not understanding why our needs are not being met now.  I'm physically, emotionally and spiritually drained right now...exhausted is more like it.  I'm waiting as patiently as I know how and I'm trusting as well as I can, but my nerves seriously get in the way when bill collectors are calling left and right and they want their money and they want it now.  You hold them off as long as you can and yet the day comes and you still don't have the funds and they start hounding you again and this time with serious threats.  And I'm thinking, Lord, I just went through this a month ago, please not again.

What is different this time?  What am I not doing that You want me to do?  How have I missed You?  Why can't I hear You?  Where are You in this situation?

I know, it sounds like I'm whining, and maybe I am, but I'm seriously asking these questions and I'm seriously waiting for some answers.

These are the times I struggle with my anger towards a certain person.  And then I start crying for all the single mommas.  This is the time I have to remind myself that God has not forgotten us, even if it feels like it.

I really am going to blog about something else, I promise.

If you think of us single mommas, will you post a few scriptures of promises we can cling to in our trying times???  It would be greatly appreciated!!!!  You know for times like now when I or we are too exhausted to even know what to read and all we can do at times is just groan inaudible words of prayer.

I think I'm still partially in 2010...

Well, it appears that this is not turning out to be a year of no worries.  Maybe at the end of the year I'll look back and see that I didn't worry as much as I did in 2010.  I hope!!!

It appears that no matter how hard I've prayed, there aren't answers.  Or just maybe I'm not hearing the answers because they are different than what I'm expecting.  I've got a mortgage payment that was due earlier and they've given me till tomorrow and as of Friday, we are now without auto insurance.  I'm at a loss.  I really don't know what else to do.  I'm going to have to go back to work full time.  The thought breaks me out into a cold sweat.  (I hope that's not taken in the wrong context)  

On another note, please keep a dear friend (Lady Kara) in your prayers.  She's trying to start a home child care business and is eagerly waiting for clients.  This will enable her to be home with her little ones as well.

Single moms have it rough.  It can be very, very depressing!

Miracles Do Still Happen, Even When You Doubt! PART 2

I'm sitting at my machine finishing up Christmas gifts for one of my sisters.  I get an alert....I'm $145 away from my December 31st Miracle!!!!!!!!!!

Praying for the $145 and $569 for the remaining bills for the month of December!!!!!!!

Praise...Praise...Praise... My heart is full of praise!!!!!!